Istighfar

Bismillaah


Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim
Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim
Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim

Kesukaan rasulullaah SAW, amalan baginda saban waktu
Minta ampunan Tuhan al-Ghaffur

Banyak yang Allaah janjikan di sebalik sendu rintihan istighfaar kita
Banyak dan melangkaui igauan
Paling agung, ampunan Tuhan
Paling dekat, nikmat di dunia
Hujan, rezeki, anak, harta, kelapangan
Aku terkedu, terkesima, bahagia

Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim
Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim
Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim

Rabbanaa faghfirlanaa zunubanaa wa kaffir a'nna sayyiatina wa tawaffana ma'al abrar
Allaahumma ameen

Heaven's Key

Bismillaah


Cari kunci,
depan pintu syurga,
alangkah kecewanya,
tidak dapat masuk,
kunci sudah hilang,
atas kelalaian...

aduh,
pusing keliling pening!

kenapa kita mau jadi begitu,
sedang kita lahir sudah ada anugerah,
kunci syurga dalam genggaman,
lalu leka kunci terlepas,
entah letak di mana,
hilang tidak berjumpa...

sampai destinasi kita rugi sendiri,
jalan sudah jauh sengsara,
tapi tika sampai depan pintu syurga,
kita tidak boleh buka pintunya...

Apa mau jadi begitu?

Salam sepi tapi mesra

bismillaah

assalamua'laikum wa rahmatullaah

teman,
salam kuhulur atas kunjungan mu ke sini

maaf kalau sudah lama aku gagal bertanya khabar
harapanku ukhuwwah itu terus segar dengan salam sepiku di sini

pergi:satu kepulangan

bismillaah

berkumandang nada dering
ada pesanan ringkas yang masuk
satu berita kepulangan
pulang ke pangkuan yang Maha Pencipta
pergi yang tidak kembali

inna lillaahi wa inna ilaihi Raji'un

sayu di jiwa
orang-orang tersayang yang masih hidup ditinggalkan
mengelilingi
sekujur jasad yang dulu riang menjejak alam
kini diam menunggu diangkat ke laman semadi
bakal didakap kelam di bawah timbunan tanah
kaku...
sepi...

ada yang pulang bila usia sudah menjejak senja
ada yang pergi bila kelopak usia baru mula mekar
tiada penentu waktu
Allaah jemput bertemu

pergilah,
sudah sampai masamu untuk pulang

redhalah,
buat mengambil pengajaran dan keinsafan bagi kita yang masih tinggal
memanfaat hayat tersisa di bumi

HKL, again..

Bismillaah

alHamdulillaah

nikmat sihat selapis kulit

kita hidup bahagia tanpa derita

indah fizikal kita selapis kulit cuma

yang putih, yang gebu, yang elok, yang mulus

bila gatal bergaru

luka berparut

sakit bernanah

melecur tertanggal

selapis kulit jadi dugaan

yang meminjam dan yang memandang

selapis kulit setinggi nikmat

harus dijaga, dipelihara

harus ditutup sempurna mana yang perlu

tak perlulah bangga menjaja bilamana itu pinjaman cuma

alHamdulillaah, today I went to the HKL for a follow up. Got ready early in the morning and headed straight to HKL after dropping my children at kindy. I took my baby along to accompany me during the follow up :)

report was out and my granuloma was confirmed harmless, alHamdulillaah!

it was just the people who suffer various skin diseases and conditions whom I saw at the lobby at the Dermatologist unit that made me very thankful for my healthy skin, and may Allaah grant us all good health inside out, Ameen.

Momma In The House

Bismillaah

A battle within
A daily struggle
To always be the 'momma in the house'
and not becoming a 'monster in the house'
ever

For it just needs a split second
to change from Momma to Monster
with 4 little gifts from heaven in the house

Just du'a it
Slowly building the strength needed
to become stronger than ever

So true when the the Prophet pbuh said
the strongest man is him who can control his anger
Patience requires strength
and it will surely be tested when one becomes a Momma

xoxo

My syurgawan

A day in HKL

Had cauterization done on a pyogenic granuloma on my thumb today :(

Hats off!
MashaAllaah very efficient and excellent service :)
Jazakillaahu khayr Dr. Zira, the specialist at HKL's dermatology department who was superb.
I had this negative perception about services at public hospitals: slow, inefficient, rude staffs, super long que and waiting, yada yada yada.

Alhamdulillaah, today all those negative stereotypes were proven false for HKL.


Registration was done in less than 20 minutes despite hundreds of patients in the hall. Then, waiting time to be seen by a MO was less than half an hour(to my surprise! mashaAllaah). After seeing my condition, the MO wrote a letter to the dermatologist department so that I could be seen by a specialist as my case was a rare skin condition. We immediately went to the Dermatology Department, handed the letter and was told to come back at 2pm as it was already 1+pm(lunch hour). So, we went to the cafe to grab some lunch and went to the surau for Zuhr(okay, the surau was a bit far at the 4th level and couldn't be easily located. alHamdulillah we found it after abah asked around and a nice staff walked with us and showed where the surau was as he was heading towards the same direction).

Back to the Dermatology Department at 200pm. Was called to see a doctor at 220pm. The doctor examined my thumb, wrote all the necessary info for medical record. Then, I waited for about 10 minutes for Dr.Zira to confirm the diagnosis and what to do next.

In between waiting, I breastfed Sarah, who was very nice the whole day. No crying whatsoever, she was just sleeping soundly alHamdulillaah.

Dr. Zira came, confirm that it was a benign pyogenic granuloma. Common among pregnant ladies at sites that had been injured before, and yes mine was developed when I was 8 months pregnant with Sarah and I believed that the spot was pricked by a needle some years ago, and it left a tiny small red spot there.

It was due to hormonal changes in pregnant women causing tissue overgrowth. Yup, mine was a red, lobulated lump on my right thumb. A few millimeters in size. Lots of blood vessels and it bleeds easily. Lots of blood each time, yuckie and scarry!

Okay, so Dr. Zira said she was going to cauterized the lump herself and the tissue will be sent for biopsy. The cutting and cauterization was done on the same day, alHamdulillaah, as the waiting time for cautery and biopsy normally would take from weeks to months due to lots of patients in the line. As my case was on a prominent limb, thumb-right hand, the granuloma can be injured and bleed easily. Hence, Increasing the risk of infection. I was very relieved because the lump was very irritating. I had to be extremely careful not to bump it into another objects or it would bleed.

I went to the cautery room, got my thumb anesthetized(a bit painful uhuhuhu..and lots of blood). I didnt watch as the doctor cut & cauterized the lump as I closed my eyes throughout the entire procedure...seram lorr...I was shivering a bit too). When I opened my eyes, the area was cleaned and left with a small 'black hole.' Sakit jugak lorr as the bius went away.uhuhuh.

this was before HKL :(