Pengayuh basikal di tepi jalan

bismillaah


perlahan pakcik itu berkayuh
Mengerah tenaga menggerakkan basikalnya
di tepian jalan menyisih dari kereta yang lebih pantas meluru
Kulit sudah terbakar mentari
tubuh sudah basah bermandi peluh

basikalnya itu berat
berat dengan bebanan besi buruk dan sampah yang dikutip
Mungkin beratnya jauh lebih dari basikal itu sendiri
saiznya juga terkadang menyebabkan basikal itu tidak stabil
namun pakcik itu tetap gigih mengayuh
sesekali menyapu keringat di muka dengan tuala kecil lusuh yang tergantung di lehernya

setiap kali terlihat pakcik itu
akan terbit rasa insaf pada diri
agar terus mengerti
memahami
dan mensyukuri

alangkah Tuhan telah memudahkan rezeki untukku
mempermudah jalan bagiku
lalu nikmat Tuhan yang mana ingin aku dustakan?

aku jadi malu pada kemalasanku
pada segala macam alasanku
untuk segala macam keluhanku
pada terfikir betapa beratnya bebanku

betullah yang dikata
berat mata memandang
berat lagi bahu yang memikul

Tuhanku,
Allaahu Rabbi,
Bimbing daku,
Jangan biarkan aku sendiri...
Permudahkanlah bagi para hambaMu
yang gigih berusaha mencari rezeki
Ameen.

Sempurna usai lebur

bismillaah


Humpty dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty dumpty had a great fall,
All the king's horses, and all the king's men,
couldn't put Humpty together again...
but, Allaah is surely CAN!

*****

jatuh berkecai
serpihan berserakan
hancur lebur
musnah

tiada insan yang boleh kembalikan
tiada insan yang boleh kembalikan kesempurnaan

hanya Allaah azzawajall yang bisa menyempurnakan kejadian semula
dari tiada kepada ada
dari hancur kepada semula
dari mati kepada bernyawa

hanya DIA yang satu,
Tuhan yang telah menyatukan burung dari empat gunung
Tuhan yang telah mengugah lena hambaNya selepas ratusan tahun
Tuhan yang bakal menyempurnakan kebangkitan serata maya

Daie atau mufti?

bismillaah


fasa fitnah ini,
marilah kita jadi da'ie
berhentilah berani-berani
menyandang tugas para mufti

memang mulia kedudukan Faqeeh
dihadam sudah puluhan ribu hadeeth pesan Nabi SAW
diteliti dengan berat setiap kalimat yang diberi
dada sarat dengan takut pada Tuhan
setiap kali mengeluarkan hukum itu dan ini

tapi kebanyakan kita orang biasa
yang mungkin hafal sebaris hadith atau tiada
takutlah kita melebihi takut para Faqeeh dan mufti
bilamana menghukum kanan dan kiri

kebenaran itu tinggi
angkat dan carilah juga dengan akhlak yang tinggi
moga kita terus benar dan lurus
berpandu pada taqwa dan iman pada Allaah
rabb al-a'lamin

pengemis

bismillaah


bila kita mengemis dengan makhluk,
terasa dihina
terasa sedih
terasa geram
terkadang kecewa
dan kadang kala marah

bila kita mengemis dengan Allaah
kita mengakui kita hina
jiwa rasa merdeka
hati rasa bahagia
tenang berbunga di rongga nyawa
tiada kecewa
hanya harap menggunung
kerna doa padaNya tidak satu pun sia-sia

bismillaah


Aku mohon ya Allaah
agar jejak kaki terus berpijak di bumi nyata
bukan terbang bak terawang di kelompok awan

Terasa diri tinggi
sesuci dan seputih awan
seindah dan secantiknya
Kelihatan yang di bumi kerdil
kecil, jauh dan hina

Ya Allah
hindari diri ini dari merasa lebih baik
lebih tahu
lebih pandai
lebih a'lim
dari orang lain

Biarlah makin tunduk makin berisi
Makin tinggi ilmu
seiring semakin tinggi ketaqwaan padaMu

bukan menyampai biar orang puji berilmu
bukan menegur agar orang pandang berakhlaq
bukan menolong supaya orang gelar berbudi

Heroes Conference

Bismillaah

alHamdulillaah, alHamdulillaah

yesterday was one of the happiest day this year. After so long, I've got to attend an Islamic conference from the beginning till the end with all of my four beloved children!

It was the Heroes conference at IIUM.

okay, honestly I was not registered until last Thursday, wasn't even aware of any conferences or Islamic programs around the Klang valley, which were lots of them day in and day out.

A friend told me about the conference, I checked the website and alHamdulillaah, happy to find out that mother's room with love live telecast would be available, and hey, the fee was cheap too, mashaAllaah!

So, I registered as a group with two other friends alHamdulillaah.

I was very excited that I prepared everything the night before - yup, packed all the stuffs I thought would be needed to keep my children entertained and comfortable to stay in the hall from 10am to 10 pm! I ended up with several bags - looking like getting ready for a week away!

In the morning, everyone woke up a bit earlier, as abah had to leave for a talk in the morning too. So, syurgawan and ibu got ready and waited for ibu's friend to pick us up.

The ride to IIUM was smooth and happy, the sky was bright and beautiful mashaAllaah. We made a few stops to buy breakfast and refill the fuel.

Arrived at IIUM, everyone brought their bags and alHamdulillaah for ibu's friends for helping us carrying our stuffs - uhuhuhu..too many and heavy!. We parked a bit farther from the hall as the parking are was full. Was informed that attendees were about one thousand!

AlHamdulillaah the volunteers are friendly and helpful. We finally made it to the mother's room, alHamdulillaah! Unpacked our things and got ready for the ilm session.

However, the telecast was not up yet :( uhuhuhuhu. At first, we were told to join the others in the main auditorium, but no children allowed. My syurgawan refused to be left at the nursery(available for RM20/child). They wanted to stay with ibu walHamdulillaah.

So, I was down initially, but quickly made du'a to Allaah to grant me patience and ease for the duration of the day. I made the same du'a last night, and I knew Allah heard me. It was just I have to be a bit patient.

I enjoyed my time waiting, while entertaining my baby and curious toddlers.

An hour later, the lady technician came and set up the LCD, it worked! but, no sounds.uhuhuhu.
They said the audio cable was not long enough to be pulled and connected to the mother's room. We had to move to a new room later, because the main session was ongoing and they didn't want to interrupt the audio.

AlHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. AlHamdulillaah, Allaah gave me the strength avoid complaining, and stayed happy and content with everything around me. Yup, I missed all the morning sessions.

Finally, after the Zuhr break, they moved us to the new mother's room. It was a musolla, so it was very comfortable. It was a clean and nice room with attached wudhu'a area and restrooms! It was a blessing indeed as I didn't have to run back and forth to the restroom everytime a child wanted to use it. Plus, only mommas with child/ren were allowed to use the facility, so no QUE and big crowd, alHamdulillaah, alHamdulillaah. I wouldn't complaint about having to take all of our belongings from the previous room to the new one, which was located at the second floor and we had to walk quite a bit. I was helped with many volunteers and friends, jazakumullaahu khayr.

AlHamdulillaah, I enjoyed the conference and almost throughout the conference just stayed in the mother's room, except for the few minutes moving from the previous room to the substitute room, and oh ya, went to the restroom with Adam and had to wait in a long line(before we got into the musolla cum mother's room). I guess I was so focused on listening to the talks and taking care of my little ones that I forgot about taking a walk outside or meeting a friend etc, mashaAllaah. syurgawan visited the booths with kakak Saadiah. oh ya, lunch were bought by kakak saadiah and Amirah too.

my children were busy making new friends, coloring, exploring, etc. they enjoyed the conference too. little complaints and no major fights and crankiness, mashaAllaah walHamdulillaah! All were up and running until they were really tired, only after 9pm LOL. Adam fell asleep first, followed by Hajar, then Maryam. Sarah was the one who remained awake. Sarah was so very cooperative through the entire stay eventhough she had a runny nose and cough, alHamdulillaah alHamdulillaah, she was easy and happy! A 5+ month old baby mashaAllaah.

The conference ended half an hour earlier than scheduled. It was scheduled to end at 11pm, but the VVIP was not there for the final closing ceremony. Abah came to pick us up at around 11pm, he was around at IIUM too for his coaching session earlier. By that time, all 3 toddlers were fast asleep. We managed to wake Adam and Hajar, but not Maryam, LOL! Our lil Sarah almost immediately fell asleep as the car left the carpark! I guess she was very tired too, but too happy to be cranky at all mashaAllaah.

We reached home just a few minutes past midnight, alHamdulillaah.

That night, I cought a flu and fever, alHamdulillaah a'la kulli haal. Gave it all out for the conference, and it was time for kaffarah of my sins :)

Hari

Bismillaah

Hari kita
Dimulai dengan doa
Diisi dengan doa
Diakhiri dengan doa

Doa terus menerus pada Allaah
Tanpa henti mengetuk,mengadu di pintu rahmatNya
Moga beroleh ampunan, redha, dan syurgaNya

Ya Allaah,
Moga hari ini kami lebih dekat kepadaMu
Lewat bicara hamba yang sentiasa mengemis ini dan itu
Lewat pengaduan dari hati yang merintih
Lewat sayu sendu rindu hambaMu
Moga kami peroleh pimpinan dan hidayahMu
Moga kami dipayungi redhaMu
Dalam hari-hari kami dalam persinggahan ini
dan tika tiba waktu tiada naungan selain naungan agungMu