It is cold out there
It is cold inside
I am going nowhere
Sitting here finishing my lines

Yesterday
I was thinking of having the perfect planner of my day
What was the best time to play soccer
Where was the best spot to play
When would the field become available

So I've waited till afternoon
When I was going to kick the ball
Oh no, there were people over there
Guess I had to wait

So I've waited till sunset
I was running excitedly to the field
Oh no, people were still playing there
Perhaps I would wait a little bit more

It was now past midnight
and guess what?
I was still waiting and
Yeah! the people were all now gone
I called my friends
Let's us play!

I was running
Playing and kicking the ball
It was now past two in the morning
It was cold out here
It was cold inside

Guess what
I have the best planner for my soccer practice
No matter what it takes

Guess What
I never thought that I was going to be very exhausted
of planning, and waiting, and playing soccer
and I forgot to include the best planner on how to get up early in the morning
to pray fajr

Guess what
I just got up
and I've missed another fajr prayer

It is cold out there
It is cold inside

I wrote this sometimes in last year,

Intai-intai ramadhan
Datang dan perginya akan dikenang
Ingat-ingat wahai insan
Dunia ini hanya persinggahan
Tumpang berlalu mencari bekal
Kelak kita kan pergi kerana kita bukan selamanya di sini.
Kita kan pergi..Kerana kita bukan selamanya di sini.......
Kita kan pergi..Kerana kita bukan selamanya di sini......

It was after the incident that killed two young Malaysian students at Umichigan, Ann Arbor in Ramadhan last year.

In these past few days, I've been receiving death news of my friends' relatives. Inna lillahi wa inna ilahi roji'un. It made me think and reflect that not all people have the opportunity to live until ramadhan this year. May be not even me, or not even you. What have made we think that we will live longer and will meet ramadhan once again, which is less than a month away?

What made I think that I'll live long enough to be able to graduate next year? will I be able to arrive at home safely this afternoon?

Everything happens as decreed by Allah Ta'ala, the All Knower. Whatever it is on our planner, is not going to happen except by Allah's will.