Tuesday, April 05, 2005

:: There's no such an 'easy question' ::

A friend of mine always asked me at the beginning of our conversation, "How's your iman and dakwah today?". Each time she asked me this, it took me few moments before I could answer her back. And most of the times I was not answering her question.

Why is it so hard for me to answer this question?

May be it's because I wasnt paying attention to my qalb on that day, and because of that my polluted qalb couldnt taste the sweetness of iman. And I was so ashamed to tell her that my iman was in a very grave condition.

Dakwah? It's an obligation, but I've failed to give it my top priority. I have lots of time to do other things, which sometimes were totally useless. I gave a whole lot of excuses a.k.a lies: people dont want to listen to me, they dont like the halaqahs, etc made me down, giving the whole opportunity for shaytan to deceive me.
And I was so ashamed to tell the truth, my dakwah was hibernating.

Its pretty common to be ashamed in front of people, but the other way around in front of Allah Ta'ala ... =(

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