bismillaah

thankfulness is free and easy
yet not everyone gives thanks everyday
unbelievable how stingy we are
or how plain arrogant we are

being thankful brings contentment, happiness & beautiful life
yet we still wonder why life is very stressful and dull

Bismillaah

Menilai satu kehilangan sebagai satu pemberian
Nyata kebijakan Tuhan melebihi fikir kita

Doa dalam diam bercakap terus dengan Dia
Ada harap yang tinggi, malu yang melangit, takut yang menggunung
Semua didengarNya tanpa pilih kasih
Semua terjawab dengan 1001 cara yang Allaah saja yang tahu
Tapi semuanya hanya berupa kebaikan untuk kita
Tiada yang tidak
Lalu, nikmat Allaah manakah yang tidak mau kita syukuri?

Bismillaah

I have taken the step to progress in my degree, just that it begins slowly and bumpy
I have taken the steps to increase in both my worldly & Islamic knowledge, just sometimes I feel down every now and then

I am older now, a little bit wiser
as I have to be if I ever want to reach the ultimate dream of a Muslim
to be given the priceless opportunity to see His face in the hereafter
to be among the companions & Rasululllaah SAW

May my spirit continues to stay high
May my heart becomes stronger
May my eeman increases every second
May Allaah give me all the blessings and strength that I need

and I realize & surrender,
that I am truly a hopeless soul without Him

bismillaah


nasihat dari seorang imam
kata-kata dari seorang guru
pesanan dari seorang ulama'
teguran dari seorang teman

semuanya menyegarkan hati
bagaikan titisan hujan di hujung daun
lembut, segar, dan mempesona

Bismillaah

diam yang tenang
sepi dari tersalah perkataan
sejuk mata yang memandang

Bismillaah

what about my PhD? Next week will be my proposal presentation.

I wonder if we've ever done proposal presentations in front of Allaah before we 'went' into this dunya? All I know is we have testified that Allaah is the Rabb, Lord of the worlds.

However, I do know that we are going to do 'viva presentation' in front of Allaah in order to answer and 'defend' our life's theses.

Most grad students will be very nervous and prepare well for their presentations, be it a proposal presentation or a viva, but do we as humans, are well aware and prepare at our best for our final and crucial 'presentation' in front of God(where it's not us who'll do the talking but our records?)?

I wonder..., and I pray to Allaah that I have used and will use my time on this world wisely to be prepared for the 'grand presentation.'

p/s: if we pass a viva, then we'll get our PhDs, and if we pass the grand presentation. we'll get entrance to Jannah! How cool is that?

Bismillaah

I am dreaming a life in jannah, where everything is beyond our imagination and everything is in its best.

I am praying to Allaah that He grant me His mercy to be among the inhabitants of jannah, so blessed and successful.

I ask Allaah that He give me iman, ihsan, strength and strong determination to live my life as an abd fits to be an inhabitant of Jannah.

After all,it is only Allaah that matters. This world and everything on it will perish.

Bismillaah

Alhamdulillaah, what a blessing I have, been blessed with beautiful ukhuwwah from my sisters around me. We've gathered and discussed about things that inshaAllaah, will bring us closer to Allaah azzawajall.

For the love of knowledge, we have came and worked together, may Allaah accept it from us and make us steadfast on this effort. Allaahumma ameen.

I admire the sisters & the students of knowledge: their spirit, their ideas, their sacrifices, their sisterhood, their smiles, their words, their courage. BarakAllaahu fikum.

Alhamdulillaah, these things:ukhuwwah and knowledge craving that we dearly miss from our youth, are coming back to us, and Allaah alone who listen and answer His servants, Allaahu akbar.

Bismillaah

Went for the 'Kuliah' sisters during Friday lunch break, Alhamdulillaah, not only I got to listen to beautiful reminders about Ramadhan, also got complimentary lunch and a Ramadhan souvenier: a box of dates!!!

-spread the good news of Ramadhan: with greetings like Ahlan ya Ramadhan, Ramadhan mubarak, etc
-give as much as we can afford during Ramadhan:why not give 'duit raya' in the month of Ramadhan, prior to Syawal ;)
-mmm should add more, but will recall later if possible, inshaAllaah

Jazakumullaahu khayr, thanks a lot especially to Prof Zailina and Ustazah Hamidah.

BarakAllaahu fikum.

Bismillaah

A journey within the journey, my journey to obtain a certificate to enable me to be called a 'doctor'. I have to make sure it is not just about getting the title or the certificate,but also about improving myself, my knowledge, and most importantly my deen. Plus, to share and to act upon the knowledge.

Allaahumma ameen

:)

bismillaah


Alhamdulillaah, very fruitful weekend I had last week. I was happy and others were happy.
Yes, it was very tiring, but Jannah is not for Raahat al-nafs.It is gonna be a lifetime struggle!
Not easy indeed.

Sunday, I was sad and happy both at the same time. I was happy to see happy students in my session, but sad to miss the 2nd day of Coolness of The Eyes. I know I have missed tons of pearls for my life. It was a tough decision, May Allaah bless is always on us.

Bismillaah

I am still embarking on the journey of a slave of God in this world. Alhamdulillaah, still here with healthy mind, body, and spirit. Life has been wonderful with its ups and downs. I cant thank Allaah enough for what He has given me.

As a human being, sometimes I feel life is flying fast and sometimes it becomes very slow that the clock feels like ticking very slowly. I know I should have been doing lots of things to make me busy and make my life more meaningful, but sometimes there are moments when I feel like doing nothing, Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim.

There are moments when I did things that I really regretted later on, when things went out of control and when I let my emotion took me over. Thinking it over, reminded me how ungrateful and careless I am. May Allaah forgive me and give me the strength to rectify my faults and overcome my weaknesses.

Bismillaah

A book read, leads to the second, and it will lead to the third book, and so on.
Reading is always fascinating at how much one will learn from it.

A good book will keep us hooked up until the last page, and will keep us thinking and learning until the end of time. A knowledge gain, should not only make us smarter, but should also make us wiser.

However, how much of our time has been spent on reading? From reading the Qur'an to other reading materials? How do we choose what to read, and which will benefit us or not?

I admit that to start reading is quite a struggle for myself. It is hard to set aside a time to sit and read especially when there are many distractions such as the internet, shopping, etc. *Sigh*
In other words, tons of EXCUSES! No wonder I do not progress much these days, Astaghfirullaah al-a'zim.

May Allaah make it easy for us to make sincere and continuous effort to gain beneficial knowledge. Allahumma ameen.

Bismillaah

Monday, March 15, 2010

Saya bukanlah orang yang punya kebolehan luarbiasa. Saya hanyalah seorang insan yang sama seperti anda yang sedang membaca coretan ini, tetapi ada sesuatu di dalam diri kita masing-masing yang sangat hebat dan perlu kita sedari.

Kita adalah satu keajaiban kehidupan. Setiap insan memulakan perjalanannya daripada persenyawaan sel terkecil seorang ayah dan sel terbesar seorang ibu. Walaupun jarak di antara permulaan perjalanan sperma dan ovum hanyalah kira-kira 10cm, tetapi oleh kerana sperma adalah sekecil 5mikron, jarak dan cabaran perjalanan yang mesti ditempuhinya adalah ibarat berenang di dalam lautan berasid sejauh puluhan kilometer.

Seringkali kita merasa kecewa dan sedih dengan kehidupan. Pada masa itu, selalunya kita akan merasa rendah diri dan mungkin juga merasa gagal. Anda tidak sendirian kerana jutaan manusia di seluruh dunia juga pernah melalui detik-detik seperti itu. Ia adalah perkara yang normal. Perasaan-perasaan ini hanya akan menjadi negatif jika kita membiarkannya berlarutan dan menguasai emosi kita, dalam erti kata lain, bila kita kurang bijak menangani perasaan-perasaan ini.

Satu formula yang Allaah titipkan kepada kita di dalam al-Quran mengingatkan kita agar memerhatikan kejadian diri kita dan alam sekeliling kita bilamana kita terasa iman lemah dan tidak bermaya.

In Surat al-Baqarah, v.21-22; Allah Says:
{" O mankind! Worship your Lord Who Created you and those who were before you so that you become pious; Who has made the Earth a resting place for you and the sky as a canopy ..."}

MashaAllah, betapa hebatnya proses kejadian seorang manusia. Ia adalah automatik, pantas, sempurna, dan percuma!

Pernahkah anda merenung tentang kepayahan para saintis untuk mengkaji dan cuba membina semula tisu-tisu dan organ manusia? Sesetengah projek kajian memakan masa bertahun lamanya dan ratusan ribu ringgit. Hampir seluruh usaha kajian kejuruteraan tisu adalah kajian yang memakan kos yang amat tinggi dan masa yang sangat panjang. Sungguhpun begitu, belum ada satupun hasil kajian yang dapat menyamai apa yang telah diciptakan Allah secara semulajadi. Semuanya masih gagal untuk mencapai tahap kesempurnaan ciptaan Allah!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

MashaAllaah, hari ini seorang sahabat telah mengirimkan satu e-mail yang memperkatakan tentang perlunya kita kembali merenung tentang kejadian diri kita dan alam sekeliling untuk mengukuhkan keimanan. Baru semalam saya mencoret sedikit tentang kehebatan manusia dan alam ciptaan Allaah ini dan hari ini seseorang di Amerika Utara juga bercakap mengenainya. Ini menunjukkan bahawa kejadian ciptaan Allaah memang amat hebat sehingga ramai manusia sentiasa terpesona dan membicarakan tentang diri mereka, alam, dan Yang Maha Pencipta, al-Khaleeq.

Semalam saya berkesempatan melawat halaman peribadi rakan-rakan di laman sembang Facebook. Seorang rakan menulis di statusnya tentang keinginan dan keperluan beliau untuk menulis. Beliau amat mencintai penulisan dan tujuannya untuk mengabadikan sebanyak mungkin butiran permata yang terjadi dalam kehidupannya dalam bentuk tulisan. Beliau juga menekankan bahawa beliau menulis bukan kerana minta dibaca oleh orang lain, tetapi penulisan beliau adalah ditujukan untuk diri beliau sendiri terutamanya.

Perkara ini mengingatkan saya tentang kepentingan niat. Jika kita berbuat sesuatu untuk disanjung dan dipuja, maka kita akan dapat itu semua. Tetapi, mungkin kita gagal mendapat apa-apa faedah untuk bekalan kita menuju kepadaNya. Moga penulisan ini mendapat bimbingan dan redha Allaah Ta’ala, Allahumma amen.

Wednesday April 14, 2010

Alhamdulillaah, telah sebulan berlalu semenjak tulisan yang terdahulu. Hari ini, saya telah menyiapkan segala dokumen termasuk cadangan penyelidikan untuk melanjutkan pelajar ke peringkat doktor falsafah. Walau bagaimanapun, saya masih menunggu surat sokongan daripada Dr. Iskandar Mansour, pensyarah Bahasa Arab di University of Southern California. Moga Allaah memudahkan urusan permohonan untuk menyambung pelajaran ini.

Kebelakangan ini, hati sering dirundung kesayuan setiap kali berita tentang kematian bayi-bayi yang dibuang dan kanak-kanak yang didera. Betapa kejamnya manusia, sehinggakan bayi dan kanak-kanak yang tidak berdosa, yang telah dikurniakan rupa paras yang begitu comel dan aksi yang manja, dibuang, diseksa, dan dibiarkan mati tanpa belas kasihan. Bayi yang baru lahir, lazimnya semua comel dan akan menarik hati sesiapa yang memandang untuk menjadi sayang kepada bayi tersebut. Bagaimana ‘ibu’ yang melahirkan tergamak membungkus bayinya di dalam surat khabar dan kemudian dibalut plastik sampah sebelum dibuang di merata tempat; dari tempat pembuangan sampah hingga ke sungai? Hati saat ini tertanya-tanya, ada berapa banyak lagi bayi malang yang dibuang dan tidak disedari? Hilang begitu sahaja di sebalik timbunan sampah, atau lebih tragis jika terus rentung menjadi abu terbakar? Dangkalnya iman di hati manusia, sehinggakan membuang bayi dianggap sebagai jalan penyelesaian terdekat. Padahal, perbuatan itu bukan sahaja mendapat kemurkaan Allaah, malah dibenci oleh manusia. Walaupun bayi tersebut tidak dapat terus hidup dan menjadi ‘beban’ kepada ‘ibu’nya, namun di akhirat nanti pasti dia akan menuntut atas ketidak-adilan yang telah terjadi ke atas dirinya. Itulah yang akan menjadi seksa abadi di mana penyesalan sudah sia-sia.

Ya Allaah, kasihanilah anak-anak yang teraniaya ini. Moga kau tempatkan mereka di Jannah di bawah limpahan kasih dan sayangMu yang tidak bertepi. Allaahumma ameen.

Ya Allaah

Telah Engkau berikan keistimewaan ini pada manusia

Hidup sihat, aman, dan bahagia

Untuk punya rasa cinta dan sayang

Untuk bernafas dan tertawa

Dengan percuma

Ya Allaah

Telah Engkau anugerahkan bentuk rupa sempurna

Wajah tampan dan rupawan

Akal sihat untuk pandai menilai

Belajar dan berfikir untuk kelangsungan hidup di dunia

Tapi,

Ya Allaah

Telah kami aniayai anugerah yang Kau berikan

Telah kami siakan peluang luas yang Engkau bekalkan

Telah kami hancurkan hidup kami sendiri

Telah kami zalimi anak-anak kami dengan perbuatan kami

Ya Allaah

Telah kami jerumuskan remaja-remaja kami dengan zina yang tercela

Kami biarkan mereka membunuh bayi-bayi kecil yang suci dengan keji

Kami marah dan mengalirkan air mata, rasa sedih dan perit di dada

Namun,

Terus-terusan saja kami suapkan remaja wanita dan lelaki kami dengan hedonisma

Kami relakan perhubungan antara jantina tanpa batas masa dan usia

Kami relakan mereka keluar berpeleseran atas nama keterbukaan dan kemodenan

Kami lalaikan mereka dengan dunia dan membelakangkan agama

Kerana nyatanya

Kami rela lebih ramai bayi malang dibunuh dan dibuang

Demi takut remaja lelaki dan wanita kami menjadi ahli dalam agamanya

Kerana kami tidak mahu mereka takut kepadaMu

Kerana kami lebih gilakan kuasa dan cintakan dunia

bismillaah

hatred kills man
internally and externally

hatred hurts no matter what
hatred destroys things around us
hatred burns love faster than a fire burns a house

if its too hard to forget
why cant we forgive?

whats the reason
whats the motivation
spreading rumors and telling fake,bad stories
here and there
now and then?

hatred comes when we gave up to shaytan
hatred lives in us when we follow the evil whispers
nothing is good about it..nothing
if we hate just because of ourselves

bismillaah

Alhamdulillaah, last weekend was spent on WOTU - worlds of the unseen, taught by ustaadh Yahya Ibrahim of AlKauthar Institute.

Lessons:
- repetition is important. Although we have learned many things about the hereafter life, hearing them being repeated, and corrected is necessary to make us aware about hereafter. Awareness will remind us to prepare for the best...
- make sure the stories that we have heard are based on valid evidence from the Qur'an and sunnah.
- revive the sunnah =) .. be consistent, qaleelan qaleelan soro jabalan

bismillaah

hiatus...
a very long one :)...

we went back to Malaysia, and the 'nomad' helped us with the huge, heavy boxes. He told us that he was sad because Fazrul was leaving. No one will care about him anymore :( .We hope that he will have a better life in the future, and embrace Islam as a way of life inshaAllah.

Today, I am sitting in the lab while the others are at the hospital. A student in the lab was involved in an accident and had blood clots in the brain. She was on the life machine in the ICU, and today she was confirmed brain-dead. They took off the machine at 300pm. I do not know the student personally because I have just joined the lab, and she was in the ICU a few weeks already.

The athmosphere is gloomy and it is raining outside :(

Life and its sudden stops and breaks, laughter and tears within, colors of the rainbow and the gloomy rainy days.

Take a deep breath, say du'a, and lets move on.